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It's day 6 of a surprise I'm working on for her...
She's out of town this weekend, visiting her folks/sister.
Since money has been tight, I'm trying to give her a present from the heart this year. She seldom, if ever, reads this site, so I'm assuming my secret will be safe here. It's not really that much of a secret, but I didn't want to bring it up to her directly. Let's see if she notices, or if I have to point it out at, say, Christmas.
Oh..yeah...you probably want to know what 'it' is.
Well, last Saturday night Mrs. Frennzy was out of town with some friends, so I had the boys over for poker. We stayed up most the night drinking, smoking, and carousing. Somewhere in the wee dawn hours, I ran out of cigarettes. Since no one was in any shape to drive, I had to go without.
Then on Sunday, I was simply too tired/hungover to deal with smoking or going anywhere to get smokes, so I spent the whole day smoke free.
Then on Monday, I was running late for work, and had no cash, so I decided I would put off getting cigarettes until later. Then, around noon, I came down with a pretty serious migraine, and got sent home from work. (in a good way). From Monday night until pretty much this morning, I have had some sort of weird flu-like thing, accompanied by headaches, bodyaches, and stuffy head. So, I sort of decided that I would cleanse over this week, by not having any alcohol.
Yesterday morning, it occurred to me that I hadn't had any cigarettes all week. Sense it had already been over four days, I decided to see how long I could stretch that out. I managed to make it through the day without craving too hard.
Today is day 6 of being smoke free, and I'm having a hard time dealing with work. I'm fidgety, shaky, and am having a hard time concentrating but, strangely, I feel really good. I think I might make it this time. No more smoking. No more. Must quit.
Plus, I have a really cool new mantra that an online friend gave me. She said, "You don't need 'will power'....you need 'won't power'"
So, I vow that I won't smoke today. I can't promise anything about tomorrow. But for today, I am not a smoker. I have won't power.
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